moving on again
deny, accept, search, decide
packing and changing
I’ve been all over the map on this decision. I made it much harder by trying to imagine and plan for every future contingency. I’ve offered to help my mother and may potentially move in with her to allow her to stay in the house she knows and loves. I was trying to make a decision that would account for the likely move back east to live with mom. However, after several phone calls with her, it became clear that I needed to make a choice and home for myself here while understanding that I may move in the next year.
My first choice was to rent another room in a house, giving me more flexibility, but leaving me juggling shared house dynamics and the changing needs of landlords. Another choice was to get an apartment of my own, the first place of my own in 7 years since selling my house. The irony is I sold my house to avoid having to share it, needing to rent a room, or other creative ways, to pay my bills and keep the house. By selling my house, I set myself up for 7 years of sharing houses as the renter! A third choice was to buy a van and travel. I yearn for travel and freedom, but it didn’t seem like the right time to go wandering. My financial life is finally getting on track with earnings from both social security and a job as a courier that I enjoy.
The decision was complicated by a very tight real estate market with both houses and apartments in short supply with inflated prices. Most apartment complexes have a 2-3 month waiting list, and the largest property management company won’t even put you on the waiting list without an application and security deposit, along with rather vague answers on getting the deposit back if you don’t move in. Ultimately, I was offered an apartment in a senior apartment community that I had applied to well over a year ago. I resisted for several weeks because I don’t relish the idea of living in a senior-only community, but this was the best apartment that I could find and afford.
This week I move into a small one-bedroom cottage-style apartment with a private entrance and patio, fireplace, and view of the pond. The rent is $601/ month plus utilities which probably sounds great to those of you living in more expensive areas, but these apartments were $445 just over a year ago.
After all the fear, stress, and drama, I feel good, and mostly at peace in making this choice. It will be nice to have my own place again, even if only for a while before moving back east. I plan to keep my furnishings simple and low cost in case I move later this year. If plans change with my mother, then I might treat myself to better furnishings. I currently have no furnishings, other than clothes, sheets, linens, and some decorations, because I purged everything when I sold my house.
I’ll share some photos after I move and settle in a bit. As many wise people note, we need to take care of ourselves in order to be able to help others.
Take care, my precious friends and readers.