ding dong the grinch is calling
my investments are falling
the losses cut like a knife
tainting my emotional life
triggering old stories
full of pain, not glories
will I ever learn to thrive
or shall I quit this jive
sleigh bells are ringing
children keep singing
Christmas spirit is here
if only I release my fear
Unlike me, I hope you listen and follow your inner guidance. I’m gentler and more compassionate than before, but I still often fail to hear, understand, and follow my soul’s guidance. When on track, I feel open, alive, connected, and flowing, But how to get there when I’m facing tough decisions is still elusive.
This round of pain relates to my investments in which I lost 1/3 of my money in the last two weeks. In retrospect, I heard the question and urge to sell, but didn’t follow the call. this causes emotional pain and distraction as I watch my savings slip away. It triggers past pain from losing the majority of my life’s savings twice in risky stock choices. Luckily the fresh air, physical exertion, and pace keep me from being too distracted during the day.
I’m not looking for sympathy or answers. This is my way of acknowledging and processing the experience.
There’s been some relief, both because the markets rebounded a little and I shifted my attitude, realizing even if I lose my whole investment, I will be okay. Unlike the previous times, I invested only a small percentage of my savings in stocks. I want to keep investing, transform this pattern, and boost my income and savings for retirement.
I’m releasing this sad story to enjoy some holiday cheer. Ho, Ho, Ho.