life challenging soul choices
This post comes from a building feeling of internal unrest. I’ve been feeling blocked and not knowing what to write about because I want to be honest with my feelings, and I also want to empower and uplift others with my words. Reading about a similar contrast for Acacia on her blog lead to writing this conflicted post!
I hope this is the breaking down of the old to make room for the new! My financial life is very challenging with almost no income and or savings left. I’m working two sales jobs and realize this is part of the problem by creating a lack of focus and commitment. And I’m having a hard time doing sales at all, especially for services that aren’t connected to my passions. I want to create work that is passionate and meaningful, but have no idea what that looks like. So what is the answer? I don’t know. I only know that something needs to shift.
I also feel conflicted between the spiritual ideal of loving myself and life as they are versus the practical reality that I need to do something to shift my life. As if often the case with life, the hardest things to do are what is needed. This situation clearly calls for trust, decision and action, three things that I’m not very good at doing. 🙂
Thankfully, spring has arrived, offering joy and new beginnings. Then I start feeling hope, gratitude for life and the glimmer of trust that everything will be OK.
To spring and trust.