Not knowing has been a constant companion in my life.
I was inspired by an article on not knowing by Gail Brenner. In the article, she states, “As I see now, it was always this way, peace was always available, but the power of my attachments kept it hidden from view. Every attachment contains within it a seed of resistance to what is.”
Right now, and in every now-moment, you are either closing or opening. ~David Deida
With all my experience in not knowing, you might think I’ve made friends with the unknown. Unfortunately, that mostly hasn’t been the case. In my resistance to not knowing, I not only locked in the not knowing, but created endless pain. Lately, I’ve been learning to accept myself, my life and my imperfections. Occasionally, I enter the zone of not knowing called acceptance, which can lead to gratitude and even bliss!
Adam Cambell of the Possibility Alliance in NE MO talks about embracing mystery as a way to discover life and aliveness. Embrace the fullness and richness of life; both the joys and sorrows. He seems to be a wise young man, having taken time to travel, reflect and help create an intentional community. His community is based upon the vision to be agents for love and aliveness. Here is a wonderful article in which he talks about his life, values and community.
As I learn to embrace my life as it is, including the not knowing, I open my mind and heart to new possibilities. Compassion plays a big part in this journey too. I’ve written before about our endless striving to be better, do more, achieve happiness, stardom and riches. And if we are really good, maybe even Nirvana. I’m learning to offer myself compassion; for not having all the answers, not being perfect, making mistakes, worrying, not living up to my ideals and the principals that I write about.
At those times, when I accept or even surrender to what is, I’ve experienced the peace and joy that have no reason. They are simply the gifts of not knowing, only being.
Maybe it’s time to relax like I wrote about in my new year’s intention. What do you think?